I've experienced love of the unfailing kind, the kind that never gives up but pursues me, even when I run like a wayward, disobedient child.
In the mornings, I sat with Him. I listened to the melodious sound of the Annankra family praising their Creator, I begged for His presence.
For a while, it was hard to distinguish His voice. After such a long time of refusing to listen to it, I didn’t know which voice was His, or mine, or someone else's.
Memories and feelings and hurts collided into an ensemble of my weaknesses. My hurt lay before me and there was nothing I could do but beg to be healed. My sin was oh so heavy, and I couldn’t close my eyes without seeing the depth of what I had done. There was so much I was sorry for. So much I wanted to forget.
If only I had chosen Him instead of myself, grace instead of my failed self reliance, passion and hope instead of harbored thoughts of fear of trust.
But God, my Redeemer, drew closer to me than I ever thought possible. In the quietness of the dawn He calmed my restless heart. I realized that there is no such thing as being too far from grace. “Too late” does not exist in the vocabulary of the Lord. And the sacrifice of my Savior is enough to cover it all.
It’s never too late, my love. You have wandered, that is true, but I have called you back to me. Do you know that you that my grace is enough for you? That your life will sing my praises? I have so much in store for you, just be patient, and wait on me.
In Yeji, the oppression, the islamic religion, it broke my heart. I realized that all that they were doing… none of it would be enough. My God is not a God who requires duty and law based living. He doesn’t give me specific times to pray, or forbid me to pray during a particular time of the month. And I’m happy, really, that these people trying to make a difference in the world (we all need people like that), but at first I was discouraged. I thought that maybe what I was doing wasn’t enough. But then I remembered, that I have something they don't have {yet}: the Holy Spirit.
