for such a time as this

Words have been pretty few this week. I can't tell if there is simply too much to say, or if I am just having trouble illustrating my heart on proverbial paper.

We're all a little crushed. The beauty and joy of Ghana almost masks how much injustice this country faces. We had a pretty emotional day this week. We received some frustrating information that brought our spirits down. Kofi sat with us on the porch as we wept for the sake of these children we so fervently ache for. Asking that the Lord would give US wisdom and endurance to figure out these next steps. Feeling not quite brave enough or strong enough or well equipped to handle this.

I was reading Foster's book on Prayer this morning. How sweet of the Lord to encourage me in the few chapters I read. Making sure I knew that a spirit of brokenness is the best place to be. Not to request or seek out tragedy - but to be alive and active in a hurting world. We know that we are capable of nothing. God is breaking the three of us in attempts to teach us what it means to be his hands and feet. We often pray that the Lord would "break us for the things that break Him"... and yet, we're surprised when He does exactly that. He has given us opportunities to practice humility, service, love [when it hurts], prayer when words are few, opportunities to look past our petty and selfish frustrations in order to serve the one in front of us. He is giving us very tangible ways to trust Him in the moment, to not feel overwhelmed or burdened by the task, but to be expectant of our God to come through [always].

The Lord is giving us huge responsibilities. It is both exciting and terrifying [to me, at least. I can't speak for Thomas or Erika]. Terrifying, because the task seems so huge and unreachable.Thrilling, because He considers us worthy to carry out these tasks... to be a part of His healing, to rescue children, to love the seemingly unknown and forgotten.

I consider it a great privilege to be alive and called “for such a time as this” – and therefore, by God’s grace, I commit myself.